Friday, February 19, 2016

Smile Behind The Emotions

I am standing in the balcony and looking at the lonely street. Street looks like lonely because there is only street dog who is barking at night. When I'm looking at the street, I'm seeing that my whole society is silent right now. I was thinking that if my thought is same like the street, then I have to change it soon. Suddenly, one of my near ones came near me and said – “Why you’re living like emotional and upset person? Why you filled your mind with so many other problems? Just remove all these trash from your mind as soon as possible and live happily that when somebody looks you and talks to you then at that moment no question arrives in his mind.” I replied to him – “Why that type of problems comes with me which I don’t want anyhow? I don’t want to live in these circumstances because where there I live the atmosphere has now very much negativity. I just want to go from here.”
Our surroundings and nature are very nice but the atmosphere in our home and society has mixed with negativity and similar to this. When I'm trying to spent some moment freely and relax, I wouldn't do it. I always want to do something new for raising my hidden creativity. My aim is not to reach at the top instead my aim is to being live at that place where I’m at right now, to attract and to say to the person who is at the top, after being continuously at same place, I do the job of top better than you.
When I walk through my street and when I see someone living happily, then I ask to the god – “When will be the happiness of mine comes near me?” And God replied – “Wait my child, the times of your happiness arrives soon.” I never want to show the sad face to someone to also keep them in sad. I am not only the one who lives his life scarily & tiredly.
Everyone wants changes in their life because changes are necessarily in today’s time. But the important thing is not the change in life; the important thing is today’s time in which we’re living now. Everyone wants the happiness instead of sad in every micro-second of his life. Life is not easy to live so we have to enjoy every time of our life. Our life is short and we want more happiness. Time is like the life, time has also different phases and we never have to waste the time without any story with every time.
The street of my life is not running slow, I'm standing back with everyone who wants me in the front. But there is also a reason and it is my thought which is now fills up with negativity and loneliness. When I think about my life then why I get sad? Why my minds get toward the lonely street? These questions have no such strong reason. I know that my upcoming future is full of tough works and happiness but now question is still the same why the today’s time of mine is covered with negativity, loneliness, angriness and etc bad things? Is there any reason of these questions? No, there is not any such good and strong reason of my present times.
When we want to do something new, something different then why some of my closer ones do not like these things? I have many questions in my mind but there is not such strong or perfect answer. I don’t want to live alone; I just want a partner who lives my feelings, my emotions, etc. who also understands me. I don’t want to spend my life inside the cage of limits where there is no freedom, no extra duties. I want my life which is filled with freedom, which is also filled with extra works. But when I think in the alone time then I get depressed that why this is not possible? But anyway, I've my family; I've my friends (some good & some bad). And now I'm keeping distance with those people who is not part of my life or don’t want to be the part of my life.

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