Smile Behind The Emotions

I am standing in the balcony and looking at the lonely street. Street looks like lonely because there is only street dog who is barking at night. When I'm looking at the street, I'm seeing that my whole society is silent right now. I was thinking that if my thought is same like the street, then I have to change it soon. Suddenly, one of my near ones came near me and said – “Why you’re living like emotional and upset person? Why you filled your mind with so many other problems? Just remove all these trash from your mind as soon as possible and live happily that when somebody looks you and talks to you then at that moment no question arrives in his mind.” I replied to him – “Why that type of problems comes with me which I don’t want anyhow? I don’t want to live in these circumstances because where there I live the atmosphere has now very much negativity. I just want to go from here.”

Our surroundings and nature are very nice but the atmosphere in our home and society has mixed with negativity and similar to this. When I'm trying to spent some moment freely and relax, I wouldn't do it. I always want to do something new for raising my hidden creativity. My aim is not to reach at the top instead my aim is to being live at that place where I’m at right now, to attract and to say to the person who is at the top, after being continuously at same place, I do the job of top better than you.

When I walk through my street and when I see someone living happily, then I ask to the god – “When will be the happiness of mine comes near me?” And God replied – “Wait my child, the times of your happiness arrives soon.” I never want to show the sad face to someone to also keep them in sad. I am not only the one who lives his life scarily & tiredly.

Everyone wants changes in their life because changes are necessarily in today’s time. But the important thing is not the change in life; the important thing is today’s time in which we’re living now. Everyone wants the happiness instead of sad in every micro-second of his life. Life is not easy to live so we have to enjoy every time of our life. Our life is short and we want more happiness. Time is like the life, time has also different phases and we never have to waste the time without any story with every time.

The street of my life is not running slow, I'm standing back with everyone who wants me in the front. But there is also a reason and it is my thought which is now fills up with negativity and loneliness. When I think about my life then why I get sad? Why my minds get toward the lonely street? These questions have no such strong reason. I know that my upcoming future is full of tough works and happiness but now question is still the same why the today’s time of mine is covered with negativity, loneliness, angriness and etc bad things? Is there any reason of these questions? No, there is not any such good and strong reason of my present times.

When we want to do something new, something different then why some of my closer ones do not like these things? I have many questions in my mind but there is not such strong or perfect answer. I don’t want to live alone; I just want a partner who lives my feelings, my emotions, etc. who also understands me. I don’t want to spend my life inside the cage of limits where there is no freedom, no extra duties. I want my life which is filled with freedom, which is also filled with extra works. But when I think in the alone time then I get depressed that why this is not possible? But anyway, I've my family; I've my friends (some good & some bad). And now I'm keeping distance with those people who is not part of my life or don’t want to be the part of my life.

Feelings Of The Scared Teen

A little doll lay on her bed and thinking about the upcoming year of herself. Suddenly her favorite prince who is miles away gets connected with her and asks – “What’s happen my child?” She asks – “Why?” He said – “If I may help you.” She asks again – “But why?” He said – “I think I can help you.” She goes down in her thought; after a few minutes, she says – “Ok, but how?” Then his prince who came near her after few years, replied in a simple way – “Hey sweet doll, firstly please tell me your problem that why you’re so scared? Why you’re so tired? Why you’re looking in abnormal mood?” She said – “If my problem is not solved quickly, I’ll die without reason. My dear prince, please help me.” Prince said – “Definitely, I’ll help you.” His prince asks again (in anger mood) – “Can you please tell me your problem? I know I can help you.” Little doll get weeping and said – “Listen, my parents don’t believe me instead they always doubting me. And they always try to ask me some slight questions which has not the perfect answer; after that they get angry with me.” She continuously weeping and say – “When I was kid, my parents loves me very much. But now, they always doubt me and trying to get angry without any genuine matter.” Prince gets emotional and says that –“Don’t cry my little doll, I’m with you. You can share your love with me from now. And you can also share your all big and small problem with me. Now you don’t feel alone, I’m with you.”

After that, the prince and the little doll get much close as a friend. They both started to share all his problem and lovely talks. The prince ask with little doll – “How are you feeling now?” She said – “Feeling very much better than my past and bad times.” She started thinking and says nothing. Her prince asks – “What does happen again to my doll?” She said – “How I thank you for getting me out of this big problem?” He said to her – “Don’t thanks me my child, just be with me also.” She tries asking to him (in scary mood) – “Can I love you like you love me?” He said – “Don’t scare, just love me. You’re my favorite child.”

Suddenly one day, she message to her prince (in crying and scary mood) – “I’m in very big problem. Please stop talking to me; I can’t talk to you now.” Now that prince gets emotional and started to blame himself and says that how I’m mad and worst guy that right now when my favorite child is in big problem, I can’t help her because I’m miles away with her and their parents get doubt over me. Prince started weeping in alone and trying to ask many question with him and says that why anybody don’t understand me till now? If I started to love anyone then why they get far-away and after that they get disconnected. Oh god! Why you’re doing this to me? Why you’re trying to take me to wrong way? I just want to say one thing to you – “I just want love of myself back.”

After knowing the problems of my child, I immersed in myself. I started trying to convince myself that why I get emotional? Now I started to motivate her by doing all the things she want because if I don’t do this, she get week with inside and she never live happy and don’t want to hurt her in anyway. She knows that I’m her favorite prince and she always wants help with me and also wants to love me to live everyday happy. She request to her prince and says – “Please don’t go anywhere, please don’t leave me alone. She says that you’re the only one to keep me happy always.” Prince said – “Don’t worry my child, I’m always with you.” He also said – “I’m in your dream, I’m in your thought, I’m in your soul, I’m in the beat of your heart. I’m everywhere where you want me. So, don’t worry.”
After get connected again with her, she started loving him because she was feeling alone and blaming herself, and she wants the love by her prince back. Her prince knows that her little doll is a sweet and lovely child. She is very intelligent and beautiful. And now they both live happy even they are miles away by distance not by heart. Blaming, angriness, leaving one and other, stopped talking; connection-disconnection, etc doesn’t keeps anybody far with his love ones.